So, I've been trying to put into words what has been going on in my life. But when I think about it, I have so many emotions from moment to moment I don't have any idea where to start.
Life is crazy right now! Getting our house on the market earlier this week meant cleaning, packing and organizing. Thankfully, my hubby was awesome over the weekend and we worked hard to get the house where we wanted it to be for showings. However, the garage is another issue!
I know God is moving us where he wants us. Jeremiah 29:11 always comes to mind: "I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future."
That verse doesn't change the emotions I'm feeling at the moment. We've lived in this community for 7 years and I'm going to miss it tremendously. I'm going to miss my favorite fall activity of walking to the high school with my family and watching football. Yes, we'll be able to keep a part of this tradition in a way, but it won't be the same. I'll miss my friend who lives down the street with 7 kids who supports me when I need help and I jump in when she needs help. I'll miss much more than I can list right now...
I'm not a fan of getting re-established in a community. When we moved here it was difficult, almost culture shock. We are moving back near family, almost where we lived before, and I'm expecting some form of culture shock too(going from small town to metropolitan area). Also, we'll be downsizing from a house to an apartment, which I realize is supposed to be short term, but it will still be an adjustment.
So, I go from being excited about where we are moving to and sadness about leaving the community we currently live in. I know there will be blessings I can't even imagine, but before then I need to work through the current emotions I have.
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We already have many more boxes than this picture.. |
Some reflections on my 7 years here:
1. We were newlyweds when we moved, but the month we move will be our 8 year wedding anniversary. When are you no longer considered a newlywed????
2. I was able to get a social service job here, and in the Portland area nothing opened up for me.
3.Although I had a child while here(and still don't have my pre-baby
body), I weigh what I did when we moved and I'm definitely
in better shape. My hubby says to remember this when I get discouraged,
he's GREAT like that :)
4. I became a stay at home mom, which has fueled my passion for fitness.
5. My hubby got his doctorate after all his hard work...all of us made sacrifices to make that happen.
New goals:
1. Find more people to sign up for
Project Gillen, Please pass on the info if you know someone who may be interested in participating, or email me ideas...
2. Become as fit as possible, maybe train for something???
3. Someday become a fitness trainer. Not sure how this goal will come to fruition, but all I know is I'm gonna kick Emily's butt when we start our workouts ;)
These new fitness goals may be years in the future, but they are something that I know I'll be able to focus on someday.
Oh, and somehow I'm a much better housekeeper with the house on the market, maybe this will become habit :)