Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Transitions once again..

Life is full of transitions isn't it!??!!  We decided to move again, same apartment complex, larger apartment.  This way, everyone will have their own bedroom...I think when our little guy arrives in January everyone will be much happier!

Moving wasn't easy being 6 months pregnant and I'm still settling in.  Putting things away and organizing.  We had a great crew who helped us out.  However, it still doesn't mean living here is nice and easy.  We miss our lovely college town along with our friends.  My 4 year old especially misses her friends.  She gets plenty of social interaction and is making new friends, but she misses those specific relationships that we left behind.

My mom said something that is so true:  You left part of yourself behind.  Ok, now that statement in itself brought me to tears.  She's so right!  I miss that one friend who I could just call and see what she was up to or if she needed any of her kids to come down to our house while she ran errands.  And, she would do the same with me.  Or that one friend where we just enjoyed the kids playing together in the lazy days of summer.

Don't get me wrong.  There are great things going on.  We live near family and that has been a blessing.  Seriously, our daughter is in what I call "grandparent heaven."  We love our church and are getting established there.  My husband has a good job which supplies the finances we need.  All 3 of us(and baby) are healthy...and with all my friends being diagnosed with cancer I'm not taking that for granted. I have friends who have become my family and that has become more evident in this move. I really have many blessings in my life.

I just have days where I want to click my heels and say, "There's no place like Pullman, there's no place like Pullman, there's no place like Pullman."  And be transplanted back to visiting with friends that know me better than most people do here. Obviously, that can't happen, and life wouldn't be the same...but I do miss the life we had.

I realize it takes time to get settled somewhere, but sometimes the unknown in life is the hardest.  I don't know if my husband will truly love his job.  I don't know how long we will live in this state.  I don't know what the future holds.

I do know that I have to trust God in these unknowns.  I have to trust that He has the plan that is best for us and that He brought us back here for a reason. It doesn't mean it will be easy, but no one ever said it would be. So, with all that said, I choose to keep my focus on God and the blessings He has given me.

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Pregnancy-6 months

Ok, so previously I was at the stage in this pregnancy where people were like "Oh, you're pregnant, I had no idea!"  While I've been thinking, "Yes, I've put on 15 pounds, and my belly is protruding..."  But, since we moved to a new place, all the people I meet would have no idea what I looked like before this pregnancy.  Especially, since a dear family member told me it doesn't look like I've gained weight.  She even added, "And, I'm not saying that just because I'm your sister in law, it's the truth."  I'm just finally LOOKING pregnant...

So now I've crossed a threshold.  I've gone from hearing, "I didn't know you were pregnant"  To, "When are you due??"  And, along with that comes strangers touching my belly. I know, I know, pregnant women are cute...I've always thought that, but I've never had the urge to touch a strangers pregnant belly.  Maybe I will when I'm a happy grandmother and miss those parenting days or maybe I'll just remember that there are some boundaries that aren't meant to be crossed?

Don't get me wrong, I'm not against people touching my belly.  In fact, when it comes to family and friends it really doesn't bother me(maybe a little warning would be nice). One day I even forced my baby brother(who's no longer a baby, but I enjoy reminding him he is;), to touch my belly.  I may have freaked him out a little, but honestly, out of all my siblings he knows me the best.  Just wait until he actually feels this little guy move...this kid already has a strong kick!

And, then there's my 4 year old who all the sudden will realize my belly has grown and start giggling.  She has said things like: "Mama, your belly is growing."  She was also the first out of the family to feel baby brother kick.  And, just the other day she told my parents, "My mom is REALLY pregnant." LOL

All this to say, I'm enjoying this pregnancy as much as I can knowing it is most likely my last.  I'm making sure to keep my sense of humor amongst all of our adjustments in this move. I'm enjoying the fact that my daughter is so excited about her baby brother and has now changed his name to:  Lightning Thunder. 

And, at dinner tonight she informed me: "I actually warn people you are pregnant so you don't bump into people with your belly."  She totally cracks me up with her statements!

Quote found at: http://open.adoptionblogs.com/weblogs/my-top-ten-favorite-adoption-quotes

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Cancer :(

For those of you who read my blog do you remember these two posts about Julie Longstreet?
Please pray and Please continue to pray. She passed away on September 27th. 

Also, do any of you follow Tricia Minnick.  She just lost her grandmother to cancer.

And, my friend over at http://harmlove.blogspot.com/ found out the other day that her husband's cancer has spread near his pancreas and spleen.  He will have surgery soon.

Please pray for all of these people along with their families!  Along with anyone else you know who's battling cancer or the loss of a loved one.