Moving wasn't easy being 6 months pregnant and I'm still settling in. Putting things away and organizing. We had a great crew who helped us out. However, it still doesn't mean living here is nice and easy. We miss our lovely college town along with our friends. My 4 year old especially misses her friends. She gets plenty of social interaction and is making new friends, but she misses those specific relationships that we left behind.
My mom said something that is so true: You left part of yourself behind. Ok, now that statement in itself brought me to tears. She's so right! I miss that one friend who I could just call and see what she was up to or if she needed any of her kids to come down to our house while she ran errands. And, she would do the same with me. Or that one friend where we just enjoyed the kids playing together in the lazy days of summer.
Don't get me wrong. There are great things going on. We live near family and that has been a blessing. Seriously, our daughter is in what I call "grandparent heaven." We love our church and are getting established there. My husband has a good job which supplies the finances we need. All 3 of us(and baby) are healthy...and with all my friends being diagnosed with cancer I'm not taking that for granted. I have friends who have become my family and that has become more evident in this move. I really have many blessings in my life.
I just have days where I want to click my heels and say, "There's no place like Pullman, there's no place like Pullman, there's no place like Pullman." And be transplanted back to visiting with friends that know me better than most people do here. Obviously, that can't happen, and life wouldn't be the same...but I do miss the life we had.
I realize it takes time to get settled somewhere, but sometimes the unknown in life is the hardest. I don't know if my husband will truly love his job. I don't know how long we will live in this state. I don't know what the future holds.
I do know that I have to trust God in these unknowns. I have to trust that He has the plan that is best for us and that He brought us back here for a reason. It doesn't mean it will be easy, but no one ever said it would be. So, with all that said, I choose to keep my focus on God and the blessings He has given me.
Great blog Angie! Transitions are hard and boy have you done pretty much all of them that you can do in about the shortest time possible. You have moved states, moved apartments, are growing a baby and being an awesome wife/mom, not to mention adjusting to be near family, friends, twins ;), and your husband has started a completely new job!
ReplyDeleteIt is so understandable that you would want to flash back to the life you created in pullman. you had beth there, bought a home, made a life.
Being in transition makes it nearly impossible to get settled and start to make roots. and as you know not knowing where you end up to makes roots is hard!
Selfishly, I hope you get through this transition very soon and build roots close to portland ;)
We will have to get together soon! :)
Thanks twin! I appreciate you!
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