Friday, August 15, 2014

Grief and Loss

Most of you already know that I lost my dear sister in law, Rachael, in July.  What I haven't done is update this blog on losing my Mom.  God took her home just about a week ago. You can see more information here: http://mytoughmama.com/

I have lost 2 very influential people in my life this summer. It hurts and it hurts deeply. Rachael was a true sister to me.  My Mom was an awesome mom.

Tears continue to come freely.  I had a moment when I wanted to call Rachael to ask her what I should wear to my Mom's service on Tuesday.  And, I've had several moments where I've wanted to send my Mom another imessage so she could see pictures of my kids or just say I love you.  But she's not on the other end of her ipad in Dominica anymore.  And, it hurts, Oh, it hurts. I know I will have times like these for the rest of my life.

So many people are missing her.  My Dad, my family, all of our extended family and the list goes on.  But there is our church family in Dominica that lost a very important person in their community.  Although my parents were in Dominica together for a short time my Mom made an impact on everyone there.  She loved her community and showed God through her actions. That is how she lived her life.

To all of you in Bataca:  I'm praying for your loss. I wish there wasn't so much distance so I could hug all of you and tell you how much my mom cared for you. I'm so glad you were able to spend time with her and see her passion for God.  I pray it has ignited a passion in you to live to the fullest for God.  And, quite frankly, I want to see all of you in heaven!

I don't understand many things that happen this side of heaven. I don't understand why I've lost 2 very special people in the same summer.  What I will continue to cling to is my faith in God, who loves and cares for me.
This was my Mom's life verse, and it is something I'm clinging to now.

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